Self Image and Love

And we all thought I was done. lol. So some of my family members are starting to workout; walking the Ravine Gardens State Park,- google it is a state park in Florida, but any way that brought my mind to doing what I used to do which was workout a little in my room and loose a little/ tighten up my body. But I have a problem with sticking to the workout. One reason because of course its exercise I get tired of it, secondly I think I "had" an unknown hindrance, which I will explain. I think my hinder was within my self, I always struggled with my self esteem, for the longest in my life I never considered myself beautiful, smart, none of those encouraging words. So now when people say that it makes me feel good but it also makes me feel funny in some way. So fast forward to maybe 2009-2010. Those years where the most trying times in my life. Although I was in an okay place I wasnt happy, I wasnt JASMINE. I had what I will call a big moment in my life when a guy I had a crush on in high school, moved on in his life but me being in the mind state I was, I was unable to make myself move on. I can now say that I am over the situation but not completely healed sometimes it still hurts when I think back but I am okay with that chapter of my life. during those times I really learned who I was and I learned about myself. In the process of learning I began to love myself and be happy with myself and appreciate "me" for who I am. Once I came to that realization I totally changed and was just happier than I had ever been in my life. So that was a lot but let me relate that back to exercising. I think that my self image has a lot to do with why I have a hard time sticking with a exercise/diet regimen. Its weird that I would have that problem when one would be happy to change their visual image in a positive way. I think within my mind me having such a challenging time accepting my body now that I don't want anything to change. I have a hard time understanding why but it also makes since to me.

<3 Jay

Blessed

I am blessed & for some reason I am just realizing how blessed I am. So hence the title of this post. I am loving my life and the accomplishments I am making within myself and in my life.
So I am officially breaking the news although it was none from the beginning, I am finished blogging. I no longer have the time or the desire to blog. I blog but for me its more therapeutic to blog on my phones notepad than find a computer and go at it. This blog was NEVER for THE PEOPLE, It was always and has always been for me to express my self. & the old name was [x]pressions of Jay; I believe. lol. So an update about me is I am finishing up my AA in Sociology (April 2011) this is based on if I complete Biology with a passing grade and I believe I am so I am claiming my AA degree. I will continue on with my Bachelors in a year because I am currently working on my AS with my AA. So if no one has ever been to college its a lot of work & I am busy. So I think that's all that I really wanted to say. Of course this is blog is like my personal diary and I am never completely finished with it; as long as I know the password. lol. I may occasionally pop up with updates, like for sure when I graduate. I am going to tell the world lol.
Thanks for checking me out & Stay Blessed!
xo Jasmine

Christmas 2010

Christmas sucks MAJOR ASS! Be happy when this shit over with. Fuck the Goddamn holiday's.

My Grandma wants to trip n catch an attitude when I am the ONLY ONE here to help yo ass. Really I can leave like everyone else and let you kill yourself trying to do this shit on your own.
& other bitches want to lay in and sleep and catch an attitude when you wake they fat ass up.
FUCK THE HOLIDAYS! By this time next year I hope to have my own shit!

Prayer Works!!

Update 2010

YEAHHHH!!! ITs been a loooooooooooooonng time im in my second semester at Santa Fe. Doing it well bringing my GPA up and doing whats right for me. Im watching the BET Awards right now so this want be a long blog post. Im making no promises but I will try to be back on this blogging thing soon hopefully maybe when Fall term starts back up cause summer term I really have no time. Well I do have some time every once in a while but I do most of my internet surfing on my phone, my Blackberry from Boost Mobile. Love that thing, best investment I made. Well imma get back to watching TV. But if u read my Blog Follow me on Twitter! Twitter.com/MzJayElle Thanks. For Stopping by.

Update

Gosh Its been a long time.... this sucks. I know I should have been better and updated more but No one cares about my blog so w.e. I have been up to a lot I guess. 1st thing HAPPY NEW YEAR... WOOO HOOO its 2010. So this year is so gonna be big. This Tuesday January 5, 2010 I am starting my first semester at Santa Fe College... yea I left the University of Florida... It just wasn't for me. Sucks I am so nervous about going to Santa Fe its different from UF... its an old community college that is now a four year college.
I will finish this later.. hopefully.

Wellness Journal For Class-August 26

Okay So School is back in session. :( But My work has just began.
I am starting one of my assignments now kind of early but I will most likely forget about it so the best thing to do is start now. I have to do a wellness journal... simply put change something in my daily life and keep and keep a detailed journal about my progress.
I want to change a couple of things but I think the first thing that I want to start with will be the easiest. I want to stop biting my nails so much. I want to stop because I really want to have longer nails and with my continuous biting its not helping.
I will try to post twice a week to this blog. My 8 weeks or 2 month journey will start this Friday August 28th Drop Add...
This will be a continuous blog post.
So Check For Updates under: Wellness Journal Nail Biting Update

Ebay

I WON...
Okay so I know you all are wondering what I won.
I won a Motorola I850 from Ebay ... I know its not a big deal its a old phone but...
Everyone that I talk to a lot has a Nextel/Boost Mobile phone so I needed to get one. Plus I ended my long 7 year contract with Cingular/AT&T I was tired of the BS.
I won this phone and only had to play $24.80 for it with the $4.80 for the shipping so not bad at all.
I almost won a I870 for a little over $40 but I lost (tear) but It wasn't meant for me.
...Pictures Are Below....
The Phone I Won Was A Little Banged Up But It Was The Best For The Price.
I will put A Stock Image Up Because the actual picture from ebay want work.
[[i850]] Like the one I won.

[[i870]]


xxBanana